When God gets ahold of you

Oh wow, there is so much going through my mind that I don't even know where to start. It is sometimes overwhelming when God gets ahold of you and starts talking to you and it is at times hard to comprehend. I need to get my thoughts put out there so I thought I would make a blog on it.

God knows what you need to hear and what is going to happen. God has the ultimate power and will provide. You need to seek and then you will find, you need to ask and you will get answers. Little did I know that God had a divine apointment with me tonight and everything is just scrambled together and very hard to comprehend. There is too much that is going through my head and I need God's peace so I can sleep tonight so I can get up for classes tomorrow.

Some of the topics that are running through my head are... if we do not open up and tell others about Christ and His love for them then who will? If we don't talk and they never hear and come to know Christ then what will happen to them? (I hate to say it and it tears me to pieces but they may end up going to Hell). That brings me to tears and it hurts me to realize those who are close to me that don't know Christ and know that if they don't accept His gift then that's where they are destined to go... (Truly think about that and if that does not tear you apart, bring you to tears, hurt you then you need to look at your relationship with God since as it is said "break my heart for what breaks yours" and He does not want people to go to Hell and neither should we)

Another issue that has hit me hard is the fact that we are called to have friendships with those who don't know Christ and when given a minute and the only people I could think of was 2 people who were family, that once again hurt since all of my friends are Christans and I want the Lord to open up the doors for me to make friends with those who do not know Him so that I can have oppertunities to share the Gospel.

I have also been struggling with trusting God and "following" Him all the way. My faith has strengthened during the year but there is still alot to be learned. It costs to follow God and I have realized that but it is an entire different concept to follow that.. It's easy to hear that and read it but it is a lot harder to follow it. There has been a lot been going on and I have been starting to wear a mask and I have seen what opening up and being honest does and it frees you but I am afraid of what others will say. I have been hurt by many people and there are things that I need to learn to let go but that is so much easier said than done.

God knows everything, He loves us and needs our help, we need to pray big and believe that God will answer it and can do as you pray, He will provide... But, when you have been hurt time after time and when all you know if one thing and your relationship with Christ gets better then you think all is well but as I read the other day "beware of the almost good for when Satan can't get you to do eveil then he will get you to settle for the almost good, just short of the good God wants you to know."

I don't want to settle for okay/ average/ almost good and prayers need to be bigger but you need to go with a partner. You can't face things alone and I have been doing that. I am guilty of settling for the almost good and I have been doing things alone when I need to ask for help. There is so much more here that could be talked about and more will come later but I needed to get some of this off of my mind and figured out so thanks for reading my randomness and me going on and on. Hope some of this spoke to you as well and more will be coming soon.